Have changed my name for this because I feel so stupid! lol
Tonight I was at a family party, we all had a great time, brilliant party, loads of fun etc..
I had invited my two close friends to the party -they've known my family for years, my best friend who I have known half of my life and is the one person I am closest to in the world 'pulled' at the party. Now this is an issue for me because she is engaged to a man I love to bits but also because the man she was with tonight was somoeone I have a very deep history with, although we have never and probably will never be together - he's a lot older than me, a family friend and the things that have happened with us would be hard for my family to deal with - I think purely because of the age difference thing.
I'm now not able to sleep because I'm so annoyed with her! she is the only person that knows what's happened between me and this man, and she is the only person that knows how I feel about him...and yet she went and did this, right in front of me.
I feel so betrayed, but I feel like I'm unjustified in this, he's a single man..
She isn't single, but I have to say as much as I'm shocked by her behaviour my feelings towards her arn't because she cheated on her fiance - but because I feel like she's cheated on me!!!
I don't know what I'm going to do, she's my best friend in the world, and we speak every day...I don't think I'm going to be able to speak to her, but I don't want to sound stupid, being jealous of her and a man that I will never have anyway
Any advice would be brilliant, if you got this far! lol I'm just thinking aloud - well you know what I mean! sorry if it's just a load of ramblings!!