guys i need an e-hug - sympathy required

[prettyfly1]

hey. most of you know i started seeing someone a while back and i was so proud to be with him. we split yesterday. i have always had a thing about getting too attached cause of my sons father, realised i was totally craxy in love on friday night and when he was snappy with me on monday i just used it as an excuse eto get out so i would not get hurt. i have noot heard from him since and i know him so i know there is just absolutely no chance whatsoever of him forgiving my ridiculous fear and i know i have to get over it but i am so gutted and tearful. miss him already - how crap is that, i know i sound a bit pathetic but please make me feel a bit better. incidentally i apologised to him. a lot.

thinking of you PF (((((((hug)))))))

hey guys. woke up not in tears this morning which is a good thing. have kind of decided that i have had a few days moping about now and i just have to get on with it. i feel like the worlds biggest fool for messing something so good up but he obviously just cant have felt the same and i cant really resent someone for just not sharing what i felt. i would give anything to turn back time but done is done and there is nothing i can do now to turn it back so i am just gonna push a smile on and get busy. still pretty unhappy but like everyone else i know that there will a come a time when it wont hurt any more and in the meantime i am gonna try and learn a lesson from my major cock up. xxxxxxxxxx

afternoon PF i hope this message finds you feeling better than you did this morning. there will be days when you wake up and feel like that but then there will be days when you wake up feeling more positive, eventualy the positive will soon outweigh the bad ones
but remember one day at a time because six months away right now seems a long way off, and i know cos i been there "give it six months" or "this time next year" dont help do it in your own time xxx

thanks carly. in the back of my mind i know it wont be forever and i am genuinly feeling a lot better about things today.

glad to hear it and if all else fails there are always those family size bars of galaxy i ate that many at one point i think i was in danger of becoming one lol!!! xxx

lost appetite but i am sure that galaxy will appeal to me once more soon. shouted at him yesterday. desperately wanted to provoke a row and he jsut apologised. so not funny. mind you i suppose he could have just ignored me so its better then nothing

am i being an arse now. he wants to be mates and is chatting away like nothing has happened. i know he is trying to be nice but it is jsut making me more annoyed that he is finding it this easy.

ok he called last night for a chat. but still does not sound bothered. what the hell is it with men!!!!!!!!!!!!