Feel so low

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I was just sitting here, thinking I should go to bed, when I realised that I have never really been loved, and I have wanted someone to love me for years.
Everything is so shit.

I am just pathetic.
Why would anyone want to love me anyway?
I need to toughen up.

I think it is to do with being hated for 10 years by a man who pretended to love me. I have only recently realised that he never loved me at all. No-one would do the things that he has done to me to someone they love. I have never even had a hug when I had my miscarriages, that really hurts now.

Ah well, off to bed now. Maybe I will feel bette after a bit of sleep.:(

You are NOT pathetic, but you ARE unhappy. Does he know how you feel? Are you still together?

If its any comfort, I've suffered from low self esteem, and was in an abusive relationship for years. It IS possible to break out of that cycle, and find someone special, but you do need to believe in yourself more.

No great words of wisdom, but just wanted to respond... I'm awake but seriously need to go to bed now...

You're not pathetic. I'm in a similar situation, wish I could offer advice, but you're not alone. Here's another .