Ive posted on here before under different names, purely because I dont want to come across as one of those pathetic losers that cant get their marriage to work.
But that is what I am.
Things with DH just dont seem to be getting better - and I am now evaluating our relationship and questioning whether its going to work long term or not.
An example of our issues was two days ago. We were at his parents house and he kept making mildly sarcastic remarks at my conversations - mild enough for his family to think that he was joking, but strong enough for me to know he was half serious. When we got home, we had a huge row, as I was angry and he flared up straight away. This resulted in him insulting me about anything and everything, when i was trying to talk to him about resolving these ongoing rows.
Today again, I asked him to sit with DD while I was busy doing something, and she wasnt letting me - he was sat in the sitting room playing playstation. DD followed me straight out crying and whinging. When I went back in with her and asked him again, he said "what do you want me to do, I cant tie her down". And he was still sat there, playing the game. This resulting in another argument, with me saying why on earth would I be stupid enough to agree to having another child with him, when he cant even support me with one, and him flinging his game pad halfway across the room, calling me a fucking bitch (all in front of DD, 10 months), and storming out.
The context on all these outbursts is always complicated. With him anyway. Hes recently gone through redundancy, re-training for another career path, family drama with a close family member in prison, and other family troubles.
But he always seems to have some sort of problem or "issue", which always means I have to be patient and supportive and the only person he can take his anger out on. Although I am very upset and angry, I dont want to leave him. I do love him as I believe he loves me, and he was fab with DD before all his work/family issues began.
But I just feel as though Ive had enough at the same time, and to be very honest, dont want to be around him at all lately. I just cant cope with the strain of his massive problems all the damn time, and his constant moods changing from one extreme to the other.