sorry this is quite long. I also know I am open to critisism and i accept that. 7 years ago i started an affair with a married man, actually he told me he loved me and it started then. I tried to end it ( weak excuse I know)On and off for seven years we saw each other and then broke up. Inbetween he left his wife and got back with her again and again. He has a daughter and I have a son. At the start of this year we got in touch again and started to see each other again. A few months later he left his wife and bought his own house. I have since done the same. He said graet this means now we can be together but he did say he wanted to take it slowly for the sake of his relationship with his daughter so did I. That was 6 months ago - we have had a few dates etc when he has said he was nervous and excited etc. He constantly emails and txt telling me im beautiful, he loves me and so excited about us. 4 months ago he suddenly went cold on me and said he couldn't do this. He said it was just sex etc. I accepted this and tried to move on but i still loved him. He got back in touch saying he was sorry e was just stressed out with the split etc. He still has days out with his ex and daughter as a family. Which i accept what i can't accept is they have nightsa away and at this time he says not to txt him - that hurts, but i sort of can see why- he doesn''t want us in the open yet. So we have plodded along. He again is sayinga ll the right things and txt and emailing all the time. Till yesterday He flipped after he had had lunch with his ex for her birthday. He said amongst other things i was crap in bed, i neaded to learn 4 play, i was cold, he thought of Kylie when we had sex to make him cu*, that i looked sexy until i was naked and lots more really hurtful things which have totally contradicted all he has said before. He has freaked like this before and said so many hurful things but then has apologised. My friend says he has got a disored - i can't remember the name of it - where he can't stand being told what to do - if i say don't see the ex anymore, etc she also says he is just trying to push the blame on me so he doesn't have to see his faults. She called it the push pull theory. I am hurting. I haven't respoded to him today but so want to rant at him. I know im no super model and may sometimes just want some good fast sex with him,but i don't think im crap or taht he is thinking of Kylie! sometimes we would make Love 4 times a night - could he really do that if i was crap etc. Have i had a lucky escape ?
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