Normally im fine, in fact the last few months ive been feeling fab - the best ive felt in years
However a trip to the doctors and a jump on the scale showing my weight has gone up has brought me crashing down.
and its a downwards spiral.
ex always told me my body discusted him, and i was discusting. i had lost weight, but now ive put some back on, i now feel like im no good, and am discusting again. The self esteme i had has gone.
Ive pulled out of a party i was invited to, cancelled a date i had lined up and generally want to hide until ive lost a stone. But instead of dieting - for the last week ive been stuffing my face.
Not good.
Coupled with a few threads on here about other peoples husbands - and reading them mine used to do similar things, and everyone saying how awful it is.
it just confirms how abusive the relationship was - and then i get angry for letting that happen, and feel upset that i didnt stop it, and feel that i dont know how to have a normal relationship, and in any case im too fat anyway- so im worthless and noone would love me.
So - is it normal to have such highs and lows? or should i go see a doctor or sometihng?
( i know full well i will feel totally fine in a few days though)