Tell me I'm better off without him please

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I know it was only 4 months long, but it was a very intense 4 months, I was well and truly sucked in. All I was, was a crutch to hold him up. He actually treated me like a sister/mate. I cant believe I put myself through it.
Its hurting so much, what is it im missing? Nothing really, just somewhere to go in the evenings, I know that.
Ive been so upset, cant seem to function. Took two prozac yesterday and today, thought it might help (obviously Im on prozac anyway) numb the pain. I feel so week and pathetic and im not a weak and pathetic person.
I cant believe how controlling he was now I come to think about it. I had to wait for his call so that I could go round there. He used to sit on the other sofa to me! and i stood this for 4 months, WHY???
Oh god Ive ranted enough, I could go on, but whats the point. What was the point? sorry to go on.

4 months? that's not so bad - some women on here spend 20 years with blokes like this. Count yourself lucky.

Now listen, you really, really need to get your head sorted. You need to find out why on earth you were prepared to put up with this treatment, what the hell is wrong that you value yourself so little?

You can't let yourself get into another mess like that one.

Try to see it as a positive thing - you have had a warning that you need some counselling or something before some proper evil wrong 'un gets you in his clutches.

oh and for God's sake, if Wankerface decides to pick you up where he dropped you because he needs something from you please tell him where to go!

hey you're human....you were giving it a chance!!

fwiw i've been messed around too.....alot longer than 4 months of it tho!

Msboogie - I think you are right about some counselling or something. I have let him and others walk all over me. I dont put any value on myself, always putting others first. Was talking to a friend about it yesterday and found myself saying "i think I just crave love, never felt it from my parents". That shocked me and almost had me in tears again and it was coming out of my own mouth!!! WTF !

Hes contacted me again on fb just now keeps saying sorry and what a special person I was, its driving me nuts. Im useless at being nasty I cant just tell him to bog off. I know hes only saying it to try to make himself feel better, but it just makes me cry.

Of course you're a special person, but you're not his therapist and it's unfair of him to cast you in the role. Be kind by all means, but firm. What he wants is not the point here. He's got no right to keep trying to worm back into your life. You told him it's over; he should respect that. Get a little miffed with him now.

And btw, stop me if I've mentioned this before, but Facebook is the work of the Devil. Block the bugger so he can't keep upsetting you.