DD (6) was just looking through some old family photos...

[PrettyFeckinVacant]

And she found one of me holding DS (PFB) when he was approx 2 or 3 days old (11 yrs ago). I am smiling at the camera.

She said "Your face looks different. You look happy. Can you make your face look like that now?"

I tried but it also made me feel sad because she is right. I DO remember being happy. It is just very hard to be happy now. Marriage is dead. No chance of another relationship (as far as I can see).

I do have 3 gorgeous DC and for that I really am grateful. I am not unaware of the fact that things could be alot worse.

So, I shall try to look happier in my everyday life now that little DD has pointed out that I look miserable most of the time. Although I may frighten people if I grin too much at them.

Anyone want to join me in smiling for no apparent reason??

:)

Thanks Aethel

you'll put them off if you look miserable too - I have often caught sight of myself unaware s looking downcast and feck me it puts years on!

and

I do know what you mean. I look so innocent and carefree in the first pics of me holding DD

why do you need another marriage before you quit the dead one?

marriage relationship

No, no, I dont want one actually Grace.

I suppose it is just the thought of not having a partner to talk to.

I dont have a problem with being on my own. I lived, quite happily, on my own before marriage and will do it happily again.

Just having a moan

Phew! :) :) Thanks for that

Sometimes, when I feel in a foul mood, I put a pretend smile on my face, and after a while I find I am genuinely smiling and feel better.

And when someone else smiles at me (even if a stranger in the street) it can often be infectious.

If you need to smile, then it can help if you put your hands up in the air above your head, and look upwards towards the sky (it is the opposite posture to the one you adopt if you are worried or depressed or sad).

A bit like the little boy in this picture SMILE

Well that worked Venus, I am smiling now

So true, OMDB, I do smile at random strangers when out and about and you generally get a smile back (disclaimer - Doesn't work in London).

I dont think I am miserable all the time - just the daylight hours (joke)