I'm really struggling.

[Mittz]

DC's Dad left a year ago.

The first 6 months or so was emotional but I felt positive and mostly relieved.

Now I am so low I struggle to pick myself up most days. I am trying, but am tearful and emotional. I feel fragile and things are falling apart.

I don't want to take a step back but feel a bit like throwing the towel in. I go through the motions of the stuff that I know keeps depression at bay, but it feels bad. I want to move forward but just don't have the energy.

I do pick myself up a bit but the slightest knock scares me. I want me back but she feels lost and tired.

Bloody hell, I'm at the top of the hill from you, the place with the carnval this weekend. Worth the walk up for cake, I'm child free this week.

Drop me a line if you want.

Mittz funnily enough I read a post today on this same theme the way the "drama"of the split almost keeps you going and then when the well this is it kicks in it can feel very empty and flat.

I think this is just another stage of this awful journey and that fact that you have awareness of how you feel means you will deal with it rather than letting it unwittingly take you under.

Sorry I should say first paragraph applies to me too but I know I will get through-so will you

I will e-mail you later madas.. that sounds like fun. Strange, but fun .

I suppose although I was having counselling, I have put a lot of energy into the DC's, especially DS, and now I can relax there a bit, it is all piling on top of me, I don't like thinking about me.

Mittz I think there is a massive transition thing which we sort of underestimate the effects of.

I'm assuming I've got the correct Arkwright village btw - I'm not up the hill with the big black rocks at the top, I'm along the roman sounding road and up the clatterway hill.

is rubbish at cryptic but attempting to not write my actual address on mn

Hmm.. I am at the foot of the the big hill with the black rocks at the top...

I've e-mailed you madas... saves the cryptic code talk .

yeah, would help if I gave you the right email address
princesstippietoes at gmail

sorry!