you were all comlpetley correct

[thisishowifeel]

why did I not listen to you?

I am due to fly home from Cyprus after a disasterous week. Started out ok, but thern he just started with little negative remarks about EVERYTHING!

last night it culminated with him calliong me a whore, denying that he'd ever been in league with my mother, that I was a bully, a terrible mother etc etc ad nauseum.

I hit him......

and now I feel so very bad. he pushed and pushed until something just went and I just lost it. Security took him and he slept on reception.

I feel like shit and I am now the "abuser". I told him this morning to start divorce proceedings on monday.

Why didn't I listen to you?

Just wanted to add a bit of support really, though there are some very wise and loving people taking care of you here.

Each time I read a situation like your I am whisked back 4 years with a shiver and I thank God every day that I finally faced up to it - with me it was ex-h kicking (yes, really kicking me) me out of bed in the middle of the night to help him because he couldn't manage to give littlemad some antibs and was getting frustrated. In that moment everything changed and I knew no matter how hard I was going to be I had to move on.

Good luck, it's going to get better from here.

CheerfulV totally agree with every word about the twisting and turning of things so that you're the nutter.

Thisis you will be able to drive to London etc and every time you achieve something that wanker made you feel you couldnt will be one more building block in your new life.

Be warned in a few weeks you will be angry you ever put up with your h and wonder why - when that happens be gentle on yourself