haver name changed as dont want to be outed in rl but i am a regular!!
about 6 months ago i developed a bit of a crush on one of the mums from up the school. got hold of her on facebook and eventually after night after night of chatting admitted my feelings for her!
all went a little crazy from then on and it was never clear if we could have a relationship or not, she dangled herself in front of me and played mind games till it came to a blow and we had a massive row!
we didnt talk for about a month and then sorted out r differences for the sake of people around us as we go to same preschool, school, playgroups, park etc and spend alot of time together!
anyhow since being on friendly terms again my feelings for her have got worse to the point where i feel i love her and its hurt when im around her cos i cant hold her
she started innocently flirting with me again unaware of how i felt so i emailed her telling excactly how it was and that i didnt want anything from just wanted her to be aware. the look she gave me later in the playground made me no she had read it!!
i just cant stand being around her, it to much for me, i have stopped eating and sleeping!
im thinking about moving me and my children away from the area but will it really make me feel any better???
sorry this is soooo long!