Hello everyone,
I’m 29 years old and 5 weeks pregnant, I do not know what to do. I’m unemployed at the moment and between careers. I was nanny and I feel like if I keep this baby, I have to do nannying again because of saving money. I hate doing nannying but I had to do for years.
I do not feel ready for having a baby and taking huge responsibility. I feel like if I can’t find any job after baby due, What will happen!?
My fiancé works full time, he has stable job, and is very supportive, he wants to have this baby but he told me it’s my decision he wants me to be happy.
I thought if I feel not ready in future will have abortion each time, maybe I have anxiety about this situation and fix it.
I feel like this baby might push me to do things I don’t want to do, I won’t be free, I won’t be independent.
I also feel like maybe it’s right time so our parents can spend time with our child, we are young and energetic, won’t be huge age gap between child and us.
My dream was having a nice career, improving myself about the field I work, and have baby so I can have maternity leave, I won’t be having financial difficulties, and I can support my child in any way as a mother.
I have fears and anxiety, I don’t know what to do and what’s right decision. Please help me!