I am so stressed due to our house move that it is affecting my heart rate, sleep and increasingly my ability to function during the day.
The trouble is I love our current house and have spend 15 years making it perfect. There is lots in my life that feels very unstable during to family health and other issues and I really feel that my house has become my only stablising influence.
My husband however says he hates our house and has wanted to move for years. I finally gave into this this year as I felt I was being unfair and he should get a chance to follow his dreams. The move was also meant to allow us to move closer to my parents to support them with increasing health issues.
However I am so worried about everything related to the move. Although I like the house we are buying it was on the market for ages and I am worried we will not be able to sell it if it all goes wrong. It is also a project house and I am worried about a big build. Plus one child has finally got settled at school and I don't like the local ones and my other child has severe SEN and I know she will be out of education if we move. My husband, my parents and now the chain are all pushing it and I am no longer sleeping. Noone else seems to see the worries I have and just say it will all work out ok and I should stop worrying.
I wake up at 2am with my heart pounding and don't get back to sleep at all and am struggling to function during the day and increasingly worried about driving. I just don't know what to do. My parents are deperate for us to be closer and I think my husband will insist on a divorce if I don't go through with it.
The trouble is I just don't know if I am being unreasonably worried about change. The house is beautiful and it will be nice being closer to my parents, my SEN son is happier outside school and we can probably sort something for my other son (even if it means a longer school run) but I just can't stop worrying about it all. All the move admin seems to be 100% on me too as my husband's work is v busy and it is making me so stressed. I just don't feel very resiliant anymore, when we moved when I was younger I don't remember getting this stressed about it. How can I calm this anxiety and regain my sleep. I am sure sleep deprivation is making everything feel 100% worse.
Has anyone else felt this about moving and how did you deal with it? Did it improve after exchange/completion? I don't think the current uncertainty is helping.