Please don't tell me it will get better or I can learn. I am tired of people telling me my preferences are wrong so I'm making wrong decisions or I can easily do some DIY task if I just watch a YouTube video that shows how to do it or they can teach me in 5 minutes.
What actually happens is I try to do simple house stuff and I totally fuck it up (admittedly only sometimes) The person who said they could easily teach me ends up shouting at me in frustration and I can't understand the "easy" Youtube video(s). Most of all, I hate the responsibility, I hate even trying. I'd rather live with chronic problem in the house because it's less stress than trying to figure out a minor repair or the angst or knowing how much I could screw up if I tried.
The backstory is that I only became a property owner before with ex-H, after divorce bought a property on my own. XH was good at DIY & I just helped. Now, Every property defect issue ends up stressing me out enormously, even minor things. Everything is difficult, often impossible. I hate being a house owner so much. I had a lot of money out of the divorce settlement and buying somewhere to live made financial sense (I thought). it's making me miserable now, though.
If anyone ever felt the same? How do you get past it? Is it a lot less stress if you live in a flat not a house? I could plan to give as much of my money to my kids as soon as possible and then rent, instead...