There are parts of my house that are ‘done up’ but there are parts which I feel really embarrassed about. It’s not just big jobs like an old kitchen or bathroom, that I can kind of deal with, but it’s just full of unfinished jobs, and rushed diy jobs that look shit, wall and woodwork paint unfinished and splodges of paint where I’ve tried to do what I can in little time and not taken care. Gaps in skirting, missing threshold strips. There are also bodge jobs by the previous owners which doesn’t help.
Dp has a chronic illness and we both work full time. I try to do what I can myself but on my days off running my own errands and looking after a relative. Dp illness is unpredictable, so even when we book time off specifically to get some of the jobs finished, he can be unable to help or I end up having to do things for relative so still nothing ever gets completed.
I’ve finally given up on diy because of time and would rather just get someone to do it but I just dread having people in my house. It is irrational but I feel embarrassed to even have tradesmen round to do things because of the state of it.
I feel like the big jobs like kitchen and bathroom are expected but it’s all these smaller half done jobs just look awful. Wfh probably doesn’t help because I am just staring at it day in day out, and my mind is just going round in circles. ‘I want to get X sorted but I can’t until Y is finished off, but then people will see Z’
I know it’s just down to me to get over it but how?