Hello to anyone reading this,
I really need some help/support/advice. And it's over something so silly that I almost feel foolish even talking about it.
It's a long one:
Ok, so a few months ago we moved in to a new house that we have bought. We have moved to a really lovely village in the Sussex countryside, to a small but lovely house (small due to the highly inflated house prices in the South, but this is where I'm born and bred and where my family/friends are so that's why we've paid a lot of money for a small house - anyhow that's another subject lol!), and when we viewed it the house and garden seemed perfect to us. The house is in an almost silent close, no through traffic, very pretty area, lovely looking houses, absolutely stunning views from the front rooms of the house of miles of uninterrupted beautiful countryside, so lovely it could be a painting, lovely friendly neighbours, good schools, and a lovely place with lots of wide open space to bring up our 2 children. But since we've moved in and actually lived here, on an almost daily basis I can hear the whoosh of fast traffic when we are in the garden on a windy day. It is loud enough that the sound of the traffic comes in to the kitchen if the window or back door is open. As in, I can be making dinner on a warm day to the sound of noisy, lightening fast traffic! It's so loud that if I open up the French doors to the lounge, the sound is in the lounge. It's a distant 'whoosh, whoosh, whoosh' on windy days. It's driving me insane. I HATE the sound of traffic! If it's not windy, I can't hear anything at all. But, being England, even in the Summer, as you all know, our days are often still windy. So if it is a still day (rare), or there's just a gentle breeze (also rare!), no sound is heard and I'm happy, but on a windy day I just can't bear it. We viewed the house twice, stood in the garden twice and couldn't hear a thing, it was silent and I fell in love with it, but when I think back they were 2 very still, no-wind days. It never occurred to me to do another viewing in different weather conditions! The traffic that I can hear is from a single lane 'A' road with a 50 mph limit that is 1.2 miles away from our garden - yes, 1.2 miles away!!! Not at the end of our garden or even at the end of our road! It's so far away that I cannot believe it is causing me so much distress from its level of noise! The thing is, we lived for 11 years in a small flat in a busy city on a very busy 'B' road, we had both our children there, we were bursting at the seams, I was desperate to get away from the sound of the traffic and I dreamed for years of having a quiet house with a quiet garden, and we have bust a gut to buy this place, it didn't come easy financially, we are living where every penny that comes in goes straight back out again, my husband is working masses of over time to help us do it up nicely, and we knew it'd be tough financially but we bought it because we truly loved it and thought it was a forever home and were desperate to relocate to somewhere quiet and peaceful. I love peace and quiet, hate noise, love being outdoors and adore gardens, and this garden is so pretty and lovely to look at that I thought it was everything I'd dreamed of. And we chose this village and this road because the whole place is so quiet and peaceful (or so I had thought!). I knew the 'A' road was over 1 mile away so I really didn't imagine it would cause any noise for us. The weird thing is that in our flat right on the busy 'B' road which was on major bus routes with non-stop never ending traffic, in the back of the flat when the back room windows open we could never hear the traffic. So how can I now hear MORE traffic noise from a road 1.2 miles away?! It's making me so stressed as I hate the sound of traffic so much, all I've done for years is wanted to get away from noisy traffic. When it's windy and hot/warm and the back doors/windows are open and the sound of the traffic is in the garden and the kitchen and the lounge and the back bedroom, I can feel myself getting agitated and stressed and it lasts until we get a day that isn't windy! My husband BTW does not care about the traffic sound and says he loves it here so much that he doesn't care if all you can hear is loud whooshing cars in our garden on a windy day. He has now officially fallen out with me over this because I kept getting upset about it and has banned me from bringing up the subject ever again!
Then I think about what has happened to Jo Cox and family and think bloody hell what on earth am I worrying about traffic noise for when I'm privileged enough to be alive, have somewhere safe to live and have gorgeous children.
Am I going mad?!?! Please, anyone, advise.