Can’t do it anymore

[Jazzhands7]

This sounds horrible but I don’t feel like I can be a parent anymore.

I getting literal panic attacks taking care of my kids the constant demands, not listening, not getting out the door on time constantly not being left alone ever even after more than a decade of parenting.

I actually think the stress is contributing to some chronic health issues I have. I always have one kid home because they’re sick or refusing to go to school. I can’t even go and cry because it will effect them too much.

I’m finding simple things like making dinner hard and it’s getting harder to interact with them I’m just starting to feel either numb, in extreme panic or depressed ‘.

I love my kids but I don’t know what to do? I really don’t know how to get out of this. I was hoping to have a day to myself to try and sort myself out mentally but again, my kid is home from school. They are always home from school and I feel like it’s been that way since covid.

Has the children got any sen? Additional learning needs? ASD? Do you like the school they go to? There will be a reason why they don't want to go ....

Make simple/ easy dinners for the children.

What age are the children?

What does your children like to do?
Could you borrow a dog to help them get out of the house for a walk

Not easy

They’re tweens

Seems to have problems with sensory stuff and high anxiety but partner doesn’t want to get kid tested (too expensive, thinks they’re fine) school hasn’t mentioned that they think testing is necessary.

there’s three different dietary needs so I’m cooking three different meals every night. I wish I could eat anything but I can’t.

the community where we live is not close knit any everything is a drive so unfortunately there is no borrowing dogs.

I've been helped a lot by using earplugs at home - they give me a small amount of prace that allows me to cope with DC!