My son was born at 33wks just over a year ago by emergency c section. Was in nicu and scbu for 2wks then we got home all was fine apart from silent reflux. When I 1st seen him it was just like looking at a baby in a box. I felt nothing. When I 1st held him it was like holding any other baby just a very tiny one. I kept thinking it will come it will come. But a year on and still nothing? (I do think I've pnd and the hv is coming tomorrow well today to talk about it) but I don't even like him? He's not an easy baby I can't put him down and he cries all the time even when there's nothing wrong like nappy,hungry etc etc. Has anyone else felt the same? What if I never love or like him?!