Unsure who the father is and facing difficult pregnancy choices

[OneCalmDenimHiker]

So me and my children dad we have ( 5 kids together) spilt in January he left me. He didn’t really bother with the kids and only had them for 3 hours on a Saturday ( his choice)

fast forward to April I had a 1 night stand bad I know. On the 26 of April.

I stupidly ending up sleep with my children dad on the 5 th of may.. did his normal think got in side my head made me feel special ect said he wanted his family back.

I tested negative 2 weeks after the one night stand.

i tested positive on Monday the 18th of may says 1-2 weeks.

im at a lost. I do have the implant in so I wasn’t expecting to get pregnant.

I haven’t told the one night stand as I don’t know what to do.

my children dad does know and he said if it’s his baby he doesn’t want anything to do with it.

im not sure what I’m looking for here. I was stupid.

You already have five children? Can you afford another one? Especially with COL, and your one night stand (by virtue of being a one night stand) is not going to hang around? If not, look into abortion before it's too late.

I have an appointment booked for Thursday.
money wise I will be ok. I work in a very high paid job. I basically do everything for my other 5. Even when we was together he was never really here. He works to but when he wasn’t at work he would be with friends or out playing golf.

I just want to say it sounds like youre being hard on yourself first of all. You just had a one night stand, and then secondary to that it sounds like your ex partner manipulated you, especially considering he has now said that he wouldnt want another baby with you if its his after saying he wanted his family back. Of course having a new baby isnt the same as just returning to an ex partner and children you have already, but from how youve explained he hasnt interacted with your children, it sounds like he isnt a present Father figure/family man.
Unfortunately Im not sure the way youve taken your pregnancy tests would mean anything at all regarding who the Father could be. If you havent already, I think you should look at what dates were most likely for ovulation on the cycle that youve gotten pregnant on. Maybe this could help you determine the likeliness of who is the Father better, but even then I think only a paternity test would be able to give you the guaranteed answer? I think youd be best talking to your GP about this matter, or another medical professional. They shouldnt judge you, and they should listen to how youve been feeling and how you feel right now too. Going through a breakup with a partner youve had five children with was surely a lot to handle emotionally, even if your daily routine wasnt even impacted. It sounds like youve been doing a lot by yourself for a long time- dont underestimate that!
If you have enough money, and you know that you can do this without the support of the Father, then this choice really depends on how you feel. Its your choice, nobody elses. I wouldnt rule out the one night stand guy as someone who could step up and be a good Father just because he was a night stand. I think he has a right to know if he is the Father, and he could be happy about it after the initial shock wears off. I know more than one couple who ended up together because of a one night stand, or at least who coparented the resulting baby together!
I hope youre Okay. You arent stupid!