When you know it’s the right decision but….

[Otterlylovely85]

I’m nearly 41. This is approximately my 10th pregnancy (I have had a lot of miscarriages and 5 children ages 23 to 3) I can’t take artificial hormones, especially progesterone only like the mini pill, implant, mirena coil. They just make me so unwell. Partner can’t get the snip due to increased risk of prostate cancer. We have been using condoms and diaphragm, but it has obviously failed.

I know that I’m too old, too many risks, kids with autism and other needs. I will phone the hospital on Monday BUT after many miscarriages, abortion just feels wrong. I guess I’m looking for a kick up the bum and a handhold. I know how tough it will be and I’m just a bit sad

Sending you lots of love.not got any words of wisdom but didn't want to read and run.
I had an abortion in November with what would have been my 4th pregnancy. With having 3 young kids and no family support, I didn't think I would cope. However I have really struggled since and sometimes long for another baby. However I know that is the grief talking, I'm now seeing a therapist and some days are harder than others still. And I still have a longing to be pregnant. But it is the pregnancy I am missing and not necessarily another child and also wanting to change the choice I made as I feel such guilt over it.
I do think time is the best healer and I know so the time it won't hurt as much.
whatever you decide to do I hope you are okay. My abortion was done at 5 weeks 4 days ish and physically it was absolutely fine. If you ever want a chat please feel free to message xx

Thank you for your kind message. I know hormones have a lot to do with the mixed feelings!