I've just found out I'm pregnant, total shock. I have an 11 year old and a 2.5 year old. I had an awful pregnancy with my youngest, I had heart issues that put me in a&e 5 times. I've also never felt right since I had her. I get lightheaded on and off which nothing has ever been found as the cause
I also have ADHD and autism and get incredibly overstimulated and overwhelmed with the kids already, never mind adding another one into the mix
My mum wouldn't cope helping out with childcare for a third, which would mean putting my youngest in nursery full time and then the baby in nursery full time once I went back to work.
My partner isn't my kids' dad and while he's fantastic with them and loves them, he'd also love a child that's biologically his
I just don't know what to do. I don't really want an abortion but I also don't know if I want another child. I'm terrified of health issues and my heart acting up again. I'm scared I won't cope with 3. Also don't want to upset him by not going through with it (he's said he'll support me either way).
Sorry for the brain dump. My mind is just all over the place. It's 1:45am and I can't sleep 😭