Hi all. I don’t really know if I will get any clarify from posting this as there’s no right or wrong I guess but to cut a long story short I found out I was pregnant around 2 weeks ago. Immediately I knew I did not want to continue and DH agrees. I had a complicated last pregnancy and I feel like life is just settling down with my 8 and 10 year old. I called bpas immediatley but when they scanned me they could not see anything and told me I was too early for treatment. I went back again yesterday and they said I was early but because I had slight pain they wouldn’t do any treatment until scanning me again next week to confirm the pregnancy is in the womb and is not eptopic. I’m in a mess we are travelling to America on 30 th March and it’s looking like I would have a termination at around 1 week before we fly there. It is a big holiday and has been planned for over a year and can’t move it. I’m terrified if I have a termination that something will go wrong and I will end up needed treatment there , I’m also going for a week cruise round the Bahamas and will be in the middle of the ocean so my anxiety levels are so sky high it’s unreal. We will be doing Disney with lots of walking etc as well. I just don’t know what to do. I can get medical pills online privately to arrive Monday but I’m just so worried in case it doesn’t work. The nurse said I could always wait until I came back from holiday to do treatment but then I worry what would happen if I miscarry over there. My heads in a spin and I just don’t want to ruin anyone’s holiday. I’m guessing not many people have been in this situation but I have no idea what to do or who on earth I can turn to for advice. I just wanted to vent really but I feel so upset with the situation and angry with myself as well. I’ve tried all forms of contraception and none agree with me and this was a one night mistake which is now impacting so hard. I have read a lot of horror stories surrounding abortion and I’ve scared myself silly with them. Help!