A sensitive topic I am sure. I have 3 kids with autism and just found out I am pregnant with number 4, from new partner. This was unplanned (in fact pregnant after taking Ellaone), large age gap between kids and I am 40!
My biggest fear is having a child with severe disability and I always count myself lucky for what I have. My kids are on the spectrum but bright and fill my life with joy. Did you go through an unplanned pregnancy that you later regretted for whatever reason?
Part of me don't want to ruin what my kids have (note that they're really excited about the prospect of a younger sibling when this came into discussions before) and the other part just wants a strong bond with my now partner (as silly as it sounds) and I feel having a child together might bring us closer (or break a relationship)