Would love some POVs older mums

[Bluemystic]

Hey everyone
Please be kind as I am quite fragile at the moment. I am 39 and have 3 children from my previous marriage which ended due to extreme DV. I have been left with PTSD which I am receiving therapy for.
I found out I am 6 weeks pregnant with my bf of 15 months after a failed MAP.
We currently do not live together but are in the process of saving to buy a house hopefully next year.
My partner has a teenager from a previous relationship and my eldest has just recently left for university, leaving my 17 and 9 year old with us.
We do not know what to do for the best.
Financially we would cope if we kept the baby but we have little to no family support. We live a very easy life currently and travel often. Bf is happy for me to have the baby but ideally thinks it is the wrong time and would put an enormous financial and emotional strain on us, I am inclined to agree.
However, as much as it is very early I see this as a baby and I am finding it almost impossible to get my head around the abortion thats booked for next week.
I think I just need some positive words regardless to what way you may sit on the fence :(

You two have been together for a good amount of time, and it sounds like you're planning a life together. Maybe part of you is open to a child that is made up of the both of you. And I know in my heart that abortion is not something everyone can do without severe emotional consequences. At six weeks you still have some time to think about this. It's absolutely not something you should do if you have doubts, and sometimes life just doesn't go the way we planned but turns out for the best. Take your time, keep talking with your partner, and be honest with him and with yourself. I hope your best path forward will become clear and that you'll have peace in your heart and mind.