I had an unwanted termination almost a year ago and it’s wrecked me. My partner pressured me to terminate so I went to a crisis pregnancy counsellor and she further pressured me. My partner eventually came around and wanted to do the right thing. I told this to the counsellor and that I wanted to keep it and she said “you might never see your family again” (I live in a diff country to my family). This happened the day before the last day to terminate and I panicked and went through with it. Regretted it immediately.
I’ve been struggling with my mental health so much since. The only times I’m not depressed is when my partner and I are planning on having another baby soon. Unfortunately he lost his job two or three months ago. We’ve been fighting constantly, he hasn’t been helping around the house because he’s depressed from the job loss but it pissed me to be doing everything. I decided to leave and move out because I couldn’t have a baby with him if he doesn’t have a job or help out etc.
so I’m moved out and I’ve been crying nonstop since. Not even because of the break up, but because of the baby. I’m seriously wondering if I just need to get pregnant again to heal the hole in my heart. I know it won’t take it away completely but maybe it will make it smaller. Partner got a job once I moved out
im wondering if anyone has gotten pregnant after a regretted abortion and how that went. It seems like the only way I’ll be able to heal. I can’t even look at babies pregnant women or nappies etc without getting so upset.