Deep feelings toward keeping my baby, that I cant shake, when all logic is absolutely not.

[13MAPARTHELL]

Has anyone experienced this before?

our situation is absolutely not right for another baby really, and ultimately it will leave us worst off and stretched in several ways. I had an abortion a couple of years ago, and I had no feelings like this and knew that was that.

It almost feels like intuitive? It is making me so stressed and I try to push it down, but it comes back up, like almost a real feeling of love in my heart.

it could just be anxiety etc, but when I think about terminating, my throat closes up but it does not match my thoughts.

its making it so much harder

@13MAPARTHELL I don't think you are wrong to want your baby. I accidentally got pregnant less than a year after getting married and we weren't ready for a baby, in many ways we knew it would leave us "worse off," as you said. But we knew we wanted a child, and decided that there was never going to be a perfect time. And if we were "worse off," we have never regretted it, and we would never trade our daughter for more money, a bigger house, more holidays, or anything else. It's natural to feel protective and loving toward the tiny life developing inside you. Love is not always rational, love is always a risk. Have you talked to your partner about this? Is he saying you should abort again? I hope that you are honest with him if part of you really wants this baby. There is no shame in that, and most of the time a resourceful couple can find ways to make it work. Good luck to you as you work through this.

I had this feeling. Which is now my current toddler. 5 years prior I had an abortion but I had zero feeling if towards the baby, and it made the decision and action very easy (although the healing emotionally after was tough!). I think our gut guides us sometimes, and there are no explanations or reasons for it. I went to about 3 abortion appointments and just couldn’t do it this time around. It didn’t make sense to me at all.

I wish you the best whatever you decide and good luck x

@13MAPARTHELL How are you getting along? I've been thinking about you 🌸

Thank you my love ❤️ its been a tough few days for sure, we have had long chats, well me speaking and its just solidified everything, life is too short! Xxx

Thank you my love ❤️ its been a tough few days for sure, but im terminating, and im leaving my partner as well, plot twist

Which one is your decision? I can’t work it out xx