So yea I am stupid but I fell pregnant while waiting for an appointment for the coil. MAP didn't work. I can't have another child, I can't afford it. I don't even have a partner or anyone to have sex with, rare occasion. Anyway.
Failed medical termination x 2.
I now need surgical.
My "local" provider which is over an hr away as it is, doesn't offer this under sedation or general- local only.
I am diagnosed with an anxiety disorder and depression. I have a big fear of medical interventions so this has been a huge thing to me.
And now to find out I have to be awake for it. I wanted to be at the very least sedated.
The only option for that is another clinic over 2 hours away which I can't manage due to childcare (I'm on my own).
I really just wanted to rant, I'm terrified, and I think women's health services are just rubbish in this country. There is so little choice.