Hi. I don’t know why I’m here, I suppose I want advice or ideas or just to know I’m not alone.
I am 28, my boyfriend is 31. We’ve only been together for 8 months so not long at all but we are amazing together, we are so in love and we’re both absolutely certain we want to spend our lives together. We both want children but not yet. He is doing amazing in his career and has some amazing career options coming up (potentially thinking of moving to Dubai). I am not a career person, I’ve always known my purpose is to be a mum and I have always been a “care free traveller” up until I moved back to England about 10 months ago. I would love to become a mum.
However, logically this is 1. Very early in our relationship, we still have so much to do together (holidays etc). 2. I’m in a job I hate which I’m currently trying to get out of. 3. We don’t live together and weren’t planning on moving in together until end of 2025 when our current leases run out. Logically, abortion is the right option. But I’m already devastated about it. I got diagnosed with PCOS at 15 years old and have never been pregnant, I’ve spent 13 years telling myself I am going to struggle to get pregnant and knowing it’s going to be a difficult process as I normally only get about 3 periods a year.
I’m so conflicted. I’ve said since 26 that if I were to get pregnant, I would keep it. But now I’ve got pregnant (for the first time ever) I’m debating between my heart and head.
I just don’t know.