I really need to vent and let this all out and I have absolutely no one in real life to open up to. I just want someone to hold my hand and tell me I'm being a smart woman and making a good choice. I know I'm an idiot for getting involved with this man, I don't need to hear that again, I fell for his fake persona.
I am pregnant, I have a six year old I raised alone and she is a happy, bright, loved little girl. I would give my right arm to have this baby, however I'd give the whole world to not give it the father it's got.
He has raped me, abused me, removed protection during sex. He has two children he does not make time for and pays zero child support too. He is a manipulative evil man.
If I could take this baby, run and raise it alone I would do it in a heartbeat. But he would fight through the courts to have his rights. I can not prove the awful things he has done, it is my word against his. I have managed to end the relationship and now it is clear he has lost control over me he is begging me to keep the baby. I am sure this is just a tactic to regain that control.
I keep telling myself I am making the right choice, I really would appreciate it if you told me too.