Please help me

[Cw2003]

Please I don’t even no what I’m wanting from this maybe just someone to talk to? I can’t speak to anyone I no about this as they’d be very mad
i have a 2&1 year old they are 10 months apart my youngest will be 2 in April so in 4 months. I just found out I’m pregnant their dad lives 2 hours away but gets them every other weekend. I was thinking of moving up there so we are all closer.
ive been seeing someone for about a year now I’ve just found out I’m pregnant and I want this baby so much I’m heartbroken 😭💔 I’m in a 2 bedroom maisonette I have 2 large rooms my 2 girls share already so I’ll be quite overcrowded adding another. I can’t count on the dad although he says he will be here he’s just lost his job so not sure how that will pan out 😣 my 2 girls are so young they aren’t in nursery/school yet oldest will start in jan but that’s only funded hours. What I get given we live comfortably off I’m worried having the 3rd will make my 2 miss out😣 I’ve been calculating money desperately looking for a way I can keep this baby but I’m to scared to😭 what would u do? I have the appointment booked I just don’t want to do it but feel like I’m forcing myself to because in the future when they are older and want their own space etc. I can 100% cope with 3 there’s nothing more I want then this baby with my 2 but it’s my living situation 😭

Everytime I shut my eyes I imagine what could be but feel like my living situation makes my living baby’s suffer maybe? Do I be selfless and suffer the regret ?😭

If you want this baby I’d do anything possible to make it work. The aftermath for many is not a small period of low mood like we’re often led to believe. It’s a permanent decision and if you want this child and think you can make it work then I’d seriously consider thinking about whether you think there’s things you can put in place. Don’t rush and make a panicked decision, take your time.

Please don't let your living situation dictate the permanence of your lifes path. I am in the same boat as you only I am in a one bedroom flat and with even less space, the love I have for this baby just overpowers any struggles that I may face. I know I can get through anything with my babies by my side, I don't want to lose them and live in regret when I know my situation is temporary unlike the decision of ending a life. You say you really want this baby more than anything so trust and believe in yourself and the love that you can give. Sending you so much love and hugs, we got this Mama ❤️

I hope you’re doing ok 🩷