Pregnant with 2nd and considering abortion

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Please don't judge. Those who have had an abortion with their second, please share your experience. Have you regretted it?

I can't stop crying. And not tears of joy.

I have the most wonderful little boy who is 21 months old. I am happy and content with just him. I never expected to have another and I am so upset/shocked/confused. I don't know what to do.

I am 37, we travel a lot and have a wonderful life as the 3 of us. Having a second is going to change everything so so much.

I feel guilty that I wouldn't be able to give my little boy all of the attention anymore. I don't want put life to change. I've also just quit work to be a full time stay at home mum too! My parents live on the otherside of the world so having another means we couldn't travel to see them as often too.

I'm so conflicted as I don't want to regret aborting in the future. I wish I never ended up pregnant again as I was so happy and content. But I'm so worried I'll feel regret

Please can someone share any advice or wisdom on what you think I should do? It's pretty raw right now and I'm still in shock so I'm struggling to see any positives at all....

Ill speak from my experience and this is only my experience. i had one baby- only ever wanted one. I became pregnant when my child was 7. like you i freaked out and was so set on only having one that i terminated. i really struggled with the aftermath- all the reasons i had seemed silly after and in my head i had solutions to the problems.i pretty much had a breakdown which was hard. we then went on to have another baby as it felt that would 'cure me' . im glad i did- my other son adores him and i love my second. i still have days when i cant quite get my head around it as i thought i only ever would have one but we are making it work. i try and rationalise that life takes us on different paths and thats its not this planned straight line. i am quite mentally scarred from the termination and would give anything to go back to before it happened. but most of all i wish none of this has happened so i understand how you feel. i was hoping for a miscarriage so i wouldnt have to make a decision. things i didnt do was seek counselling when making the termination decision and i wish i had. that will help you explore what are you real feelings amongst the fear of change etc. i wish i had counselling because even if i had made the same decision i would have know that was what felt right rather than making a decision driven by fear. please message any time. as its a lonely place to be when making the decision x

Thank you so much for sharing that. I am so sorry you have since struggled. I really needed to hear what you've just said so really, thank you so much xx