I don’t want this baby.

[Nikolite]

So we have 2.5 year old and to be honest and I’m happy with just one. My husband really wants another baby but I just think our life standard would go down significantly with having one more as my job doesn’t pay that well. He just keeps saying we have to do it for our son, so he has company.
We’ve been having sex maybe once every 2 months (with protection) and I just found out yesterday I’m pregnant. I’m not sure how it is possible.
Also my dad has passed away just 8 weeks ago and my husband thinks our baby is a gift from god or from my dad as to have sex just once in 2 months with protection and still get pregnant it’s miracle.
I don’t even know how to feel about all this.
I don’t feel like being pregnant again. And I don’t want to deal with newborn stage again.
I’m thinking of terminating but feeling guilty about it.
This is the hardest decision I’ve ever had to make. At the moment I’m swaying towards not keeping the baby - purely as of my own mental health. I struggled allot after having our son and couldn’t cope with him crying etc. I just can’t go through it again. My husband keep saying that we need to do this for our son, to give him a sibling so I feel so so guilty but I just don’t think I can do this. He thinks I will regret it later in life when our son asks us why he doesn’t have a sibling but I can only think of how I’m feeling now and I’m feeling really sad and depressed since I’ve found out.

Hi Nikolite, how are you doing? Do you have a counselor or therapist you can talk with before making your decision? It is such a complex decision to make, and it is even more difficult considering the hormonal changes we go through in early pregnancy. I totally understand feeling depressed about the anticipation of pregnancy and the newborn stage.

Hey, how are you doing? X

Wow, that's a tough one. I'm so sorry about the loss of your father, that is a huge burden to be carrying. Your husband wants this child so much, has he offered to help you out if the baby wakes a lot during the night, and to make sure you get breaks from childcare? Maybe you need to let him know what you would need from him in order for you to not feel overwhelmed. And maybe he'd be willing to get a vasectomy afterward so you draw the line at two and will have no more unexpected pregnancies. You might want to go to a counselor together to talk this out, or else he might feel resentful if you terminate a child he wanted. It's a hard situation and I hope you can find a way through that you both feel good about.