I regret my abortion.

[Gamerchick124]

Hi everyone, no advice needed just a virtual hug right now. I'm currently as I'm typing this having a abortion. I'm sat on the toilet, in alot of pain and regretting everything. I told my mum, my dad, my MIL and my SIL and also my FIL. I have no idea what the fuck to do. I'm ashamed. Hurting and pissed of at myself for making this choice. I should of slept on it, but the pills arrived today and I just took them. Me and my boyfriend are so heartbroken and although we have a beautiful 2yr old, I feel like a part of me is missing.

my heart goes out for you- i was similar last year (besides no one but my husband knowing) as soon as i took the pills the grief hit me. that is what you are feeling grief and the finality of the choice- very few things in life are unsalvagable and this is one of them that cannot be undone. i think the significance hits you whereas when making the deicison you are in the process. that doesnt mean it wasnt the right choice- but its a hard decision and you are allowed to grieve. the first few weeks can be hard as the hormones leave your body. be kind and reach out to us if you need to. i know it was other women on here who got me through. you will smile and live again and it not feel so raw x

I'm so sorry about your situation. I feel for you, I really do. Just take each day as it comes. You have a beautiful 2 year old to keep you busy. It will get easier. Love you you and your family. ❤️❤️

You’re in my thoughts @Gamerchick124. It’s a horrible situation feeling like that and a decision you won’t have taken lightly. With any medical procedure you’re given a list of risks but the the serious mental impact from a termination is for some reason not mentioned. We’re told some people experience ‘low mood’ and not offered proper counselling prior to the decision. Online there’s the stories of women with no regrets but it’s not like that for everyone & you never really know until you’re in that situation. Women should have the choice but women should be able to make an informed choice with all the facts and the support that is required. Try to be kind to yourself; nobody who hasn’t been in this situation has a right to judge. Making that life changing decision when ruled by pregnancy hormones shouldn’t be underestimated. As @Saskia2023 says; it’s amazing that you have real life support but also use the experiences and support of women on here. It’s amazing how much people on the internet with similar experiences can help.

I remember the feeling - but years later. It was the right choice for me at the time. My grief kicked in days later, it’s horrible and all consuming but it does get better.

I was so fortunate to have my dd at the time - her smile and needs kept me going. Be kind to yourself and rest. You will get through this.

Also find some councelling. That might help

I am in a similar situation. I got an abortion at 17 weeks after sort of planning to conceive with my husband. But I don't know why I freaked out when I found I was pregnant. My husband was very supportive throughout this and even though he wanted the child, he never forced me to keep it.
I found out at 5 weeks but it still took me such a long time to 'decide' and now I feel like it was the wrong decision.
I am having thoughts of trying it again, but I am scared that it will not happen to me, and I will be punished now for not keeping the child when it happened to me.
I am usually very anxious and thinking the worst outcomes, but this whole pregnancy episode has brought out the worst in me, I can only think of negative

really sorry you have been through this- having been there i dont think enough is done for services to recognise that ante-natal anexity is the underlying reason rather than what we actually want. i was lucky enough to get pregnant again and my little boy is now 7 months. its a bit hard emotionally- at times during my pregnancy i still wanted 'it' to go away but got help from the perinatal mh team this time to recongise that its my anexity about things going wrong and being scared rather than wanting him to go. Most days i am exceptionally grateful at getting a second chance and my anexities are nothing compared to how i felt after i had the termination. its not been easy and i of course wish i had kept the first pregnancty but day by day it feels more of a distant memory and my boy takes up my head space. if you feel ready, its worth giving it another go. i am not saying you dont still have wobbles but this time you will recognise this as your anexity rather than 'real you' who wants the baby. please message any time its only people on here who have been where we are previously that got me through and help me process the last couple of years. wishing you all the best x

I feel very similar to you :( I am dying a little every day. it has been a year for me and I can't get over my mistake.

@Gamerchick124 @pv9 did you manage to get pregnant again?

@BirdUmbrella so sorry you are going through this. it really is the worst thing ive ever been through. have you managed to access any counselling/therapy- i found it helped a lot. i promise things get better- i felt broken and with time feel ive been stuck back together- never quite the same but its further away and somewhat surrreal. it wont forever been that rawness

Hi hun I am also struggling too my termination was 10 months ago . Today is Mother's Day and im so incredibly sad. It's a very lonely place to be after a termination . No one can take the pain away nothing or no one can help you have to just get through it ! I pray a lot . I pray god brings my baby back with a wonderful dad who loves him or her. That keeps me going ! Faith and hope 🩷🥹 sending you a big hug xxx

@Wanted39 I did manage to get pregnant again..I am 8 weeks along, and not gonna lie, I am still really scared and negative. But I guess I'm going to trust the process this time