Worried I may be pregnant 4 months pp.. advice!!

[DJ1995]

Hi everyone

Please no judgement here but I just need to express how I'm feeling as haven't been able to talk to anyone and I also appreciate that I don't actually know 100% yet

Basically I gave birth in April to what I'd call my miracle boy. Was told I'd need IVF and actually started on all the process ready for egg retrieval when I found out I was pregnant. They do believe that the medication probably helped with this.

Anyway, basically I'd always had some issues down there and fertility so always was told not to use a hormonal contraception. Since giving birth i was just using condoms as I've had a rough recovery after am emergency c section.

To cut a long story short one of the condoms split (only realised after) and what concerns me is even though I breast feed I've had a few periods since and when I've looked where I was in my cycle, I was probably ovulating around this time ish. Now obviously prior to me conceiving I'd been told my chance to fall naturally was slim, but I can't help but seriously worry in case I am especially as you're more fertile after having a baby. I did take a morning after pill even though it states it wont work if you have ovulated already as I cant guarantee if I had or not.

I guess I'm just looking to air this out so I don't sit and worry alone. I know I can't test this early so it's a waiting game but I don't know what I'd do if I was. Knowing my little miracle I'd feel awful terminating but I just feel its so soon after and I also had a lot of health problems related to my last pregnancy which they said I'd probably get again in the future if I was to fall pregnant again.

I dont really know what I'm looking for off anyone. Just an ear and a no judgement space for whatever the outcome is.

Thank you if you've read this far xx

It sounds like you have done everything you can to prevent so its fingers crossed some of your worry may be hormones- i know when my oldest was a baby i was so worried about getting pregnant again and despite being on the pill, breastfeeding etc i spent a lot of money on the morning after pill as i was so worried about getting pregnant again. it sounds like such a small chance given everything you have said. i would not drive yourself bonkers by thinking what you would do if.... you dont know how you would react unless that situation occurs. if the 'worst' happens and you are pregnant again then make sure you access counselling before making a decision- some people do have two under 1 and manage others have a termination and having counselling would help you process it. ive learnt the hard way with things despite all my mind constantly going over hypotheticals that its only when something happens do you know how you will react. really hope you get the outcome you hope for and its just hormones making you panic x

@Saskia2023
Thank you so much for taking the time to reply to me, you don't know how much it means to me to even just have someone to listen and speak to about it.
Like I said I kmow it seems so silly worrying about it when I don't even know but I guess you just go into automatic worry when you've tried to ensure you're preventing it yet then this happens. And I guess because I was told the first time around I'd need IVF but then fell pregnant (albeit on medication that probably aided this) I just can't help but have that unsettled niggle that it could have happened again especially if I'm more fertile after having one.
I think my main concern is if I would have to make a decision that I may really regret in the future and feel guilty for but I guess until I know for definite then I'll have to try and not worry.
I'll have to just try and see this week out and then maybe do a test when a little more time has gone by as I know its too early to take one now.
Thank you again for your time you've taken coming back to my post it really does make you feel less lonely when you feel it isn't something you can say to anyone at this stage
Xx

Hi DJ, I'm also hoping for a good outcome for you. If you are in a committed relationship, maybe your partner would consider a vasectomy? Just because the doctor said it could be risky for you to have another baby- not sure how severe the danger is. If you are indeed pregnant again, talk with your doctor about the risks of the situation before making a choice, to be sure you have the most up to date information and to see what treatments are available. The worst is to make a decision without having all the facts. And think carefully if you would like to have another child, as it sounds like this could be your best chance, if you have wanted more than one. I hope you can get a definitive answer soon so that this awful time of not knowing can be over, and you know where you stand. Congrats on your miracle son, what a crazy time that must have been for you! Glad you managed to conceive naturally, you must have been blown away. Hope you are being gentle with yourself and trying to stay calm. Whatever happens, you will get through it.