Help. Medical abortion advice please

[AquaKoala]

Hi.

I’ll try and keep this short. So I found out I was pregnant a couple of weeks after taking the morning after pill. The father of the baby, I’m not in a relationship it was just casual. It look me a little time to be able to tell him purely because I know he wouldn’t want me to keep baby and I really don’t think I want a termination.

anyway, since telling him he’s been very pushy about me having an abortion. I’ve told him why I don’t really want to have one but he doesn’t seem to understand and has been pretty nasty about it (accusing me of “trapping him” etc) I know if I continued with the pregnancy he would want nothing to do with it and has made it clear he wouldn’t be part of baby’s life. I was booked in for a termination last week but I couldn’t go through with it and he was really upset with me because of this and begged me to re book. I have re booked to attend the clinic which is on Thursday.
I am absolutely dreading it, but I also don’t think I would cope on my own with another baby (I have a 7 year old too) I really don’t know what to do. I can’t speak to him anymore because the way he speaks to me just makes matters worse.

just wondered if anyone else has been in a similar situation and would offer some helpful advise please as I’m finding this so hard!

I’m so sorry that you’re having to go through this. I don’t think anybody can tell you what you should do in this situation, it’s got to be you. You have said that you won’t have the support from the father if you decide to go through with it, so that you already likely know is the case. But how do you feel about that? And how do you feel about having the baby in general? If you genuinely want to keep it regardless of all other factors then that is your decision made. If you feel as though it’s not right and you won’t cope then that is fine too. There is no right or wrong here, only what’s right for you. Sending lots of supportive wishes x

This isn't his decision to make. It's yours. Your body, your womb, your baby if you choose.
Having a termination is not easy
Even less so, if you don't have someone to support you through it.
Take a step back, breathe, and think about what you want. Not him.
If you have any doubt at all about going through with it, which I think you do, don't do it.
I had no doubt about mine, and it was still hard to get through, Im currently attending counselling and I think about my decision every single day.
So before you go through with it, make sure it's the right decision for you.