Mid 40s and pregnant

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Ok so really looking for advice if anyone has experienced similar
I am in my mid 40s, am on high dose medication for panic and anxiety disorders and am only getting back to myself really. I have just discovered I'm pregnant...(Approx 6 w) My first thought is I just can't, I feel I am too old physically and mentally I would be worried that it might tip me over the edge. There is also the worry that the medication I am on might cause issues.
I am pro choice but I guess I never thought I would have to make the choice.
I have 2 DC (tween/teen), a FT job and am studying .
My dh (we have also been having difficulties recently) says I have to decide as it is my body which is fair but also a cop-out I think?
Am I a terrible person? Will I regret it? I know no one can answer for me but I need to decide soon...

please access counselling through someone like bpas. they will help you process all the things going through your head to enable you to make a decision and to help you cope with whatever choice you make. its a tough choice either way- both can be hard and its about processing which one you can settle with most. in terms of the medication you may have a perinatal mh service that could advise. dont rush into a decision- you can feel you just want it over with and rush a decision but make sure you take time to make the decision which feels right for you.

Saskia2023 thank you so much for replying, I feel like I have no one to confide in irl so a perinatal MH service is probably what I should do.. I just know the longer I wait the harder it will be but you are right it's better to wait a little and make sure it's the right decision for me

Completely understand the urgency- such a difficult time but hopefully You can access some counselling to help process the decision.