Hi, I just had 17 weeks abortion. It was the toughest decision of my life that I had to make. I conceived in January but I was so stressed those days that I didn't even thought about missed period. My husband was making me do 3 jobs that time. Then I have to do all household chores without any help. I was working almost 20 hours a day. I was being physically and mentally abused by him. My mother in law never left a single chance to mentally torture me. Also, my husband was having an affair. But he had kept me in so much pressure that I stayed silent. My brain stopped working. He never wanted any kids. He just wanted money.
Then in Feb, I got some bleeding that I thought of as periodic bleeding. But I started feeling like pregnant late feb. I told my husband that I'm feeling and we should get the test. He didn't allow me to have the test. I had not a single penny to but the test kit. He used to take all my earnings and all of my in laws were feeding on that money. My husband started treating me more like an animal. He ignored me, my health. No proper sleep and food. Then all the work. I was just getting weak day by day. In mid March, I finally decided to take the step and leave him. I came to my parents and told them everything. My whole situation after marriage. And we filed the divorce case.
I missed my periods date in mid March. I did the test and it turned out positive. I was so worried and I instantly decided to abort the child. I can't have that man's child. And I knew he'd never left me with the baby. He'll took the baby from me, especially if it'll be a boy. So I tried the medical abortion at home. After tablets, I bled for 1 day with very painful cramps, passed some big clots and then ligth bleeding for a few days. I thought the abortion was successful. But my health was not getting any better. I was just getting weak day by day. Then in April, I didn't get my periods. I took pregnancy test again and it was clear positive. I went to my GP and after ultrasound, I got to know that I was 16 weeks pregnant with a healthy baby boy. I was terrified with this news. I didn't want to abort the baby at this stage, but I know my husband and his mother would never leave me with the baby. They'd make my life living hell. I'm from Pakistan, so the law and order situation is also worst and I can't expect anything. He'll make my baby like himself, and I never wanted another man in this world like my husband. Also, I didn't want to cry for my child my whole life. So I decided to go for abortion. I had abortion yesterday. I don't wanna go through the procedure. It was my 1st baby. It was the most painful day of my life. I never felt any connection with my baby before. But now he's gone and it feels like nothing's left. Everything's gone with him. I couldn't see him. I couldn't hold him in my hands. After so much pain, he's just gone!!