So much guilt after abortion at 6 weeks

[Mumof2boysxx8]

Hi I have never posted on here but am desperate! I’m 35 mum of 2 amazing boys, I found out I was pregnant a couple weeks ago and my first thought was panic! I never imagined having a 3rd but was not completely done in my head either! I have something wrong with my womb that makes pregnancy quite high risk and also 2 previous c sections( last one being quite horrific) just put me off ever thinking I’d have another to be honest. Anyway, my husband was really logical, with being already overcrowded, money wise would be a strain etc. part of me agreed but the other maternal part of me didn’t want to go ahead with the termination either. I was so stuck but ended up going ahead with it last week at 6 weeks gestation and I honestly feel so guilty, sad and probably a bit of regret too. I just want to see if there’s anyone who’s been in this position to tell me it gets easier and time will heal me because right now I can’t function properly, be the best mum I’ve always been to my boys:(ps no negative comments please as I already feel rotten!!

Hey. Be kind to yourself. It’s such early days. If you can, try and access some therapy - it’s so much to process & nobody seems to talk about that part.

Dear Mumoftwoboys,
I just read your post and was very moved by it. I can relate to it due to already having older children. I’m only 1 week post abortion at 6 weeks. I have been feeling really low and guilty and regretful.
how are you feeling now? Have you come to more peace with your decision? I am really hoping I don’t always feel like this.

Sending you love and empathy. I just got my pack in the post to start and I'm 5w 5d. I have three children from a previous marriage that was incredibly abusive and horrible. 5 years later I've just married the most kind hearted and incredible man. I know logically and practically we can't have this baby. We are both in our 40s, one of our combined kids has a lot of medical and emotional needs and there are two teens as well. We are also not in the best place space wise or financially to have this baby. Im feeling a lot of guilt. Know that youre not alone.