Handhold Termination?

[SadLonelyMama]

Hello, I'm hoping I can post here without judgment. I'm about to start the medical termination process but without any support. I have nobody I can turn to, a husband who wouldn't cope if I told him and family who would be so judgemental.
I'm low on friends and struggling. There's a myriad of reasons I can't have this baby, my physical health being a big one and the fact that I'm fucking happy with the family I have. But I feel guilty, shitty and scared.

I'm 8 weeks and feel crappy, I tried to get in earlier on but early pregnancy weren't answering their phones it took weeks of ringing to get an appointment.

Can anyone reassure me that this isn't going to be the most awful experience ever because I feel an anxious wreck and just could use some support.

Please don't judge my decision not to include my husband in this, I simply can't and don't want to go into the reasons.

Thanks ❤️

Hey hun. I always say your body your choice. You don’t have to explain yourself or your reasons for any of this. What I can say from personal experience only is that the feeling of guilt won’t ever go away but you’ll learn to live with it and cope. Good luck x

Thank you ❤️

Hi - just wanted to say we’re here for you.. the worst will be over very quickly and honestly physically it’s really not as terrible as some people make it out to be.

One thing I would also say is that I slightly disagree with what has been said above about the guilt because I don’t feel any guilt for mine and even with the hormonal fluctuations I felt relief when it was over and I have not felt guilty at all really, we all deal with these things so differently and yes it might affect you for a long time but you might also just be glad that it’s over and you might move on with your life happily like I have.

The other thing I would say is that I had a medical abortion which included throwing up and having diarrhoea as well as the bleeding and if you are in the same place as your husband whilst this is happening it would be pretty tricky to try to hide it especially if you’re in a bit of pain so I would just make sure you have a plan or cover story eg tummy bug or bad period etc.

Ideally if you want to do it alone then maybe do it when he is going to be out of the house for the day or something..? And think about the timings for example I took my first one and then 48 hours later when it was time to insert the 4 pills Things started to happen about two hours afterwards so make sure you have a good window of time if you do want to be alone after you take those second pills.

❤️