I am a 36 year old mother of a seven-year-old boy who is undergoing and autism assessment and is very challenging and a three-year-old boy who is very strong-willed and challenging also and who wakes up three four times every night whom share a room.
I have been on contraception for three years and now unfortunately the contraception has failed and I have found out I have an unexpected pregnancy.
Before this news I always worried in later life I would regret not trying for a girl or another child but me and my partner agreed it was for the best because we are struggling with the boys we have already we are just getting in a situation to look for buying a house and I have got my career started and getting some time to myself etc.
Now I have the dilemma whether or not I should keep the baby it makes sense in my head practically that it is not the best idea but also I don't know if I could live with the regret I don't have a strong inkling of what to do and I'm finding it very difficult and with the time pressure I think the decision will be harder if I do decide to abort after leaving it longer.
The main concern is sleep deprivation as I'm already at my wits end with my youngest and it feels like torture waking so frequently and the financial side with regards to adding one more child into the mix the mortgage lender would offer us significantly less money as we may not be able to afford a property we need/want despite having a hefty deposit.
I feel everything else would be very difficult of course but we'd manage, my partner will support me whatever but knows what an upset it would be to our lives. I'm really struggling to make a clear decision and would like some advice?