Hi all, after reading 1000s of posts and threads on here I thought I would finally make my own. I think writing my feelings down might help me.
I am really struggling with a decision. I know in my head the right thing would be to abort. I wouldn't be able to cope. Mentally, it would be hard with 3 children for me as a single parent, school runs, days out, kids bedrooms, everything will change. I know it won't be forever but I didnt cope so well after my last child either so worry this will happen again. Financially I worry too as I already struggle at the moment sometimes and I worry that bringing another child into that would only make things worse.
But then my heart is telling me to keep the baby. I know my children would adore a sibling, I have more love to give another baby, I had 2 miscarriages before my first and I didn't cope well at the time.
I think if I went through with an abortion I would struggle afterwards and I don't know if that's something I would be able to live with, but can I financially and mentally support myself and 3 other children and give them a good happy life? I'm not sure in the point of this post to be honest, I really wish I didn't feel this way, I wish I was in a better situation. But I just feel like I should follow my head, but will my heart be missing a piece of it forever? :) thankyou for reading