Hello. I've just found out that I'm 4 weeks pregnant and I'm booked for an at home medical abortion today with BPAS. But I'm really unsure of the decision. I've been with my partner 3 years, we have a lovely home with 2 cats and we want a family together in the not too distant future. However I'm currently unemployed as I'm going through a career change which has been really hard on my mental health the last 2 months. I'm due to start an internship in April for my new career which I'm so excited for as it is an amazing opportunity. Ultimately though we are financially stable. I came off the pill one year ago and we've been very careful in that time with condoms alongside pull out. I know I want a baby with DP but I need to get my head and career sorted first. Or is this just an excuse? I'm also petrified of pregnancy and birth! And possibly giving up the life we have at the moment which is very happy. Any help would be so appreciated and I'm sorry for the women out there that struggle to conceive I feel very guilty for this.
I should mention my partner is very supportive of whatever choice I make. He thinks an abortion makes sense for the above but i think ultimately he would love a baby. he goes away to work for a month in 2 days so I feel there is a time pressure to making this decision..