Considering a termination

[Namechangedecisions]

Just looking for experiences really. Quite a surprise pregnancy, currently about 5 weeks.
Have one DS2. Definitely want another at some point.
This pregnancy would be due around the week of DS 3rd birthday.

At first I felt excited thinking about it all but today I really feel like I would feel relief if I weren't pregnant. My partner is going through intensive psychological treatment for a severe mental illness and though he was happy initially, he now feels it is too much to consider taking on. Obviously impossible to know how things will be in 9 months but they aren't great right now.

We have a big enough house but a big mortgage as a result and I haven't really had time to save up enough money to see me comfortably through a decent amount of mat leave.

The nausea is starting already and I am dreading the idea of going through it for another 8 or so weeks like last time.

Today I sort of just feel like I want things to be back to normal and to wait until we both feel ready to start trying. Don't know if it's just a wobbler or not.

Any similar experiences?

Hi Namechange, I'm sorry your pregnancy comes at a less than ideal time, but you do say you definitely want another. You should be extra careful because you may feel regret if you abort and later feel that things could have worked out. There are benefits to having children who are close in age, and this pregnancy could be a blessing in disguise. There's never a perfect time to have a baby, so think hard about whether you really want to end this pregnancy. Hope you can come to a decision you can feel confident about, and that your partner is recovering well.