Hi everyone,
I’ve just found out I’m pregnant, no idea how far as I have extremely irregular periods and this is a shock (unplanned).
10 years ago following the birth of my son I experienced significant postnatal depression and subsequently my mental health spiralled and I experienced psychosis about a year later and it took a while to recover. I’m still on medication - mood stabilisers etc after I was diagnosed with a significant mental health condition. I had a relapse earlier this year and have spent the last 5 months in recovery which has taken a long time and I’m still not where I want to be yet.
Anyway, fast forward to today and my husband is adamant that we should have a termination without even a second thought. When I found out I didn’t know how to react it was such a shock, he’s gone into overdrive (as have I) and have an appointment tomorrow for a scan with a view of discussing termination options depending on gestation. But when I sit still for a moment on my own, I can’t help but wonder what it would be like to have another baby but the fear of my mental health is so strong it’s unbelievable (coupled with being unable to talk to my husband about how I’m feeling)
Not hoping to achieve anything from this, I just had to get this out of my mind and share how I was feeling.
I hope everyone on here is doing ok xx