Undergoing MA today. Very apprehensive.

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I’ve already posted earlier in the week. Managed to get through to MSI who cover my area (the others apparently don’t!)

I found out I was pregnant last Wednesday (25/10/23) and managed to get an initial phone consultation for Sunday (29/10/23) and then my final phone consultation with a midwife the next day where she told me they would be dispatching everything to my home address and they should arrive within 3 days. It all moved pretty quickly.

The box containing my pills arrived on the tuesday - the day after my final consultation. This knocked the wind out of me. I had expected them to take a day or 2 to arrive. It was good in one way as less chance to think, wait and dwell but in another way it shocked me. My 4 year old daughter was so curious and asking what was in the box and for some reason it made me so emotional. Every time I look at my kids I want to burst into tears but I know this is for the best.

I took my first pill (mifepristone) yesterday morning at 8:20am. That was a massive step for me but I felt better and calmer after doing it. I didn’t really have any major side effects from this medicine, I had a headache and this morning I feel quite sick but I’m thinking that this could just be nerves?

Im going to insert the 4 misoprostol tablets within the next hour. I’ve read a lot of peoples experiences on here, they all differ greatly. I’m about 6+2 weeks so I’m hoping that any pain won’t be too severe as I’m pretty wary. I’m used to heavy periods but don’t usually get more than a dull ache when it comes to pain. I’m feeling very frightened and anxious about it all and everything that’s to come. Got plenty of painkillers and a hot
water bottle to help. Just hope it’s manageable and straight forward 😢

Just taken the 4 misoprostol tablets, been having mild cramps all morning, especially in my back. Just laying down now waiting for them to work 😢

Updating in the hope this thread will help others.

Currently an hour post inserting first 4 misoprostol. Very mild cramps in back and front. Have already started bleeding, went to the toilet and had a fairly decent sized clot which I heard fall into the toilet which I’m taking as a good sign. Taken some codeine, don’t really feel I need it but wanting to keep cramps at bay. Feeling a bit cold and shivery which is to be expected. I’m quite relieved at how quickly it’s started. Will keep updating.

It’s now 11:50 and I’m pretty sure I’ve just passed the pregnancy. I had a cardboard dish in the toilet (because I’m a control freak and wouldn’t rest until I knew the pregnancy had passed) and there was a fluid filled lump, about the size of a large grape, I think I’m right in thinking that this was likely the pregnancy passing. I’ve had a bit of a cry and told them I’m sorry. I’m almost feeling quite regretful at the moment although I think that’ll pass. Cramps feel like they’re ramping up a level which has surprised me. Still completely manageable. Will insert the last 2 misoprostol tablets at 12:30.

Just inserted the last 2 misoprostol tablets. Although I think I’ve passed the pregnancy, my cramps feel as though they’re ramping up a notch again 🤔 have continued with heavy, period like bleeding with plenty of clots, none the size of a lemon so far. I hope no one minds me writing this. I’m finding it quite cathartic as I’m going through everything and I’m also hoping it helps to reassure someone else going through the same thing. I will add that my pain has been TOTALLY manageable so far. I’ve kept on top of my painkillers. I’m hoping I haven’t jinxed it now.

It’s now 19:15 and I’m sat resting after the day’s events.

I really hope if anyone needs reassurance
to calm and settle their nerves that they find this post.

My experience has been as positive as it could’ve been, the circumstances aren’t pleasant, the process isn’t pleasant but it’s been far more difficult mentally than physically for me. Certainly by the time I’d written my last post, I was over the brunt of everything. I’ve continued to bleed pretty heavily for the rest of the day. Ended up getting up a bit too quickly and having a lightheaded moment with sparkles in my vision but I’ve pretty much slept since 2pm and am feeling much better since waking up.

But yes, that’s my termination experience at 6+2 ish weeks. Very minimal pain, I think I’d rate it as 3/10 at the worst point. I kept well topped up with medication all the way through and had a hot water bottle to hand which was great. Nowhere near as bad as I was expecting. Sending love to anyone going through this and weighing up their options. What ever you choose is the right decision for you. You are not a bad person, with the best will in the world, contraception does fail from time to time. I feel so privileged and lucky to live in a country that offers this service, although I’m feeling very sad, I know this was the right decision for myself and my family.

Thank you for this. I hope you're feeling ok xxx

@ShowgirlnamedLola you're very welcome, I hope it helps someone. I’m ok. Have my moments. I just feel sad. Feel like this baby is looking in on us and wondering why he/she can’t be with their big sisters. It’s absolutely hideous and I think I’ll always be a bit heartbroken over it but we just can’t do it 😢

Thank you so much for sharing this, I really really appreciate it. I’m in a very similar situation and will be taking my medicine from MSI the next few days, once I receive it. Trying to aim the worst day for Monday when my 2 kids are at school and nursery. I am so scared of the immediate pain, but also of the long term regret. But like you, this is right for us. Thanks for your calm and reassuring account x

@MHJC I’m so pleased it’s helped to calm some of your nerves. That was my intention! MSI were brilliant, I couldn’t fault them.

I hope it all goes well for you, I felt quite weepy during/afterwards but I’m 8 days on now and feel ok and at peace with my decision. I think it’s ok to feel sad but relieved at the same time. I did a normal pregnancy test yesterday and it came back negative so it’s worked.

Only a message away if you need to ask anything or want any support at all. You’re not alone x

Thanks so much, that is so kind of you to say. It really is a lonely time. I find I'm clear headed about it in the day and then in the evenings it catches up with me and I get so sad. Anyway, I'm so glad it went ok for you, and you are feeling overall ok. I'll let you know how I get on, on Sunday/Monday. Thank you xx