Unsure whether to have a termination

[Beckham1984]

I’m 39 and unexpectedly pregnant with my 4th child. Me and my husband were looking forward to finally having a bit of money to be able to afford things like holidays as our youngest has just turned 2 and we were also looking forward to having some time together again.
I don’t know if I can go back to the baby stage again but am so scared of having a termination and am worried I would regret it. I have loved having my babies but feel worried that if we were to have another our lives would become back to being broke and just existing.
Anyone been in a a similar position and can share their experience? I can’t decide what to do for the best and am running out of time

Hi Beckham, that's a very hard position to be in. You wish you could look forward into the future a year, three years, seven years, to see what life would be like if you kept the baby. At your age, the chance of miscarriage is higher. You might choose to let it continue and see if this child was "meant to be." It's a good time to decide when you feel a person's life begins. If you believe it's a child but abort anyway, it will likely be much harder to heal after the abortion. Many families have an unexpected family member and decide to make the best of it. Perhaps you or I were unplanned as well! But ultimately it's the choice of you and your husband. How does he feel about the pregnancy? Is he willing to get a vasectomy to prevent any more surprises? Is there any chance your earnings could go up in the next few years? Just a few things to consider while you decide how to move forward. Hope you can come to a decision you feel peace with.