This is my first ever post. Just looking for some reassurance, although I am very aware everyone’s experiences are different.
I found out I was pregnant 18/09/23, I did a test as I had what felt like a water infection which is rare for me & only happens during pregnancy for me. I called NUPAS in which I had a telephone consultation the day after & had a clinic appointment the day after that which was the 20/09/23.
I was scanned & told I was 5 weeks. I was certain I did not want to go ahead with pregnancy as I have a 5yo and I am still traumatised from the birth experience with him. Which has resulted in me having very bad health anxiety which I still struggle with.
we was due to go on our first family holiday on the 22/09/23 for 10 days so I was told not to take any tablets until I was home. I felt horrendous from that point on, could not enjoy the holiday as I have constantly felt sick since.
I am today 9 weeks & I have been putting off taking the tablets due to me having miscarriages in the past I thought this would be the same & I would not have to take the tablets. It hasn’t..
My anxiety is through the roof, as I know time is against me and I need to do this as soon as possible.
I just keep thinking of everything that can go wrong and I am so scared to take the first step and to get it over and done with.
i have fully prepared myself in getting heat pads, hot water bottles, big pads, pain relief.
I suppose I am just looking for some reassurance and support from other people who have been through this. It is the unknown I am scared of 😩. I have my family to support me & my partner, but I don’t seem to be getting comfort from that.
Please no judgement as I already feel a hypocrite because I have miscarried in the past.
Thank you in advance ❤️