Shock positive test today
I am perimenopausal with irregular, short cycles.
I’m 44 - would be 45 at birth if this baby defied the odds and made it to term. My partner is 55.
We have 4 children already, and had a mmc (and traumatic natural loss at 12 weeks) at 42.
Don’t know what to do. I don’t feel like this is going to have a good outcome. I don’t want to feel pregnant for the next 3 months and have to go through that again so am leaning towards medical termination. Never even thought I’d consider it before but it’s purely down to our ages and the increased risk of something bad happening, pushing our luck one step too far.
The decision is being made so much harder because we go abroad on holiday in less than 48 hours - to a country where it is illegal to terminate. MSI can’t help me before we go and said it’s too risky to do it now or whilst on holiday. They want to wait to discuss until I get back.
I’m all for not taking the knee jerk reaction but how do I get through the next few weeks of family time that I’ve been planning for 2 years, feeling rotten and wearing a brave face?
is it much worse of a process at 7-8 weeks than at 5?