Hi.
Ive been with my partner a couple of years and I have a 5 month old baby and 7 year old from a previous relationship. My partner hasp two children from a previous relationship who are very much involved in our lives. Before I got pregnant with my youngest, my partner and I wanted a big family, we both wanted at least two more kids. My pregnancy with youngest was horrible and I decided after he was born I didn’t want any more children. I expressed this to my partner and he agreed.
Fast forward to now, we’ve probably had sex 5 times since the youngest was born and earlier this week I found out I was pregnant again. Unlike with my youngest, while I was so happy, this time I was completely devastated. I immediately booked in an appointment for a termination, which is this Monday. I am estimated at 5ish weeks.
The problem is my partner took a complete u-turn and won’t stop talking about wanting another baby and how I’m making the wrong decision, he’s said he will support me but I know he’s really hurt deep down.
My reasons from a termination are that I just wouldn’t be able to manage. I am a stay at home mum and my partner works. We are doing okay financially but I don’t think I would be able to cope mentally. When my youngest was born I decided that he would be my last child. I feel bad but I know this is the right decision for me, I’m feeling guilty and upset that my partner feels the way he does and just the overall guilt of having an abortion.
Any insight ?