So about 10 days ago my Mum was diagnosed with end stage cancer- massive shock!!
Two days later went for a growth scan to be told it had dropped dramatically so scheduled for an induction on Tuesday….. bang in 37 weeks- again a massage shock!
All set for induction, better for baby to be here than not- but after a further scan today about another issue (other issue is very ambiguous and I have no real answers on that) baby isn’t that small after all but my stress and anxiety around my Mum and not having any idea how long she has left and not living nearby my emotions are all over the place and I am not in a good place!
Consultant 1 says to go ahead rather than another week for another scan (for other issue) which might still come back inconclusive the stress isn’t worth it on-top of everything else I’ve got going on!
Consultant 2 made me feel like I am an idiot for even contemplating going in for induction as my baby “is no longer small” and didn’t really understand how out of control the last few days have felt for me!!
Im just so confused and torn but I feel like for the last 12 days I’ve lost all control of everything……being at numerous scans/appointments has been like a runaway train being told one thing and then another-
getting everything ready for next week and now being told something different!